OCD much?

Preface/Disclaimer: I am a neat freak through-and-through.

Since I was little and used to venture to the grocery store with my mum after school (side anecdote: in the freezer section, we would stop and my mom would break out a jacket. heaven forbid, i get cold for the 10 minutes it takes to walk through the last 3 aisles of the g-store), I used to organize the cart we pushed around. If I was sitting in it, I was constantly organizing it, each item at a time. When I wasn't small enough to sit in the cart, at precisely the moments when my dear mother wasn't looking, I'd fiddle with where things were placed. She always told me it didn't matter, but to me it did:

Milk and juice near the back, other cold stuff in front of it, dry foods to one side, hygiene stuff to the other, frozen things at the front (since it was last), produce on the top.

After the grocery store, we'd get home and I'd get to help putting purchases away. Most kids would not be a fan of this, but for me it was a treat. Each time, I'd reorganize the pantry.

Furthermore, on a given night after drying the pots and pans, I used to reorganize the whole kitchen. For me, it was not beyond reason.

In my room, among the cacophony of stuffed animals and other very childish things, there was order. Yes, there was a lot of junk but alllll in its place. Each stuffed animal lived in a specific spot on the shelf.

Organization is one motivation to which my heart beats (besides Jesus, of course).

In coming to college, I've realized that organization is still so key to me. My planner is an example of this. My room/apartment another (though I feel really bad when I leave signs in the apartment pleading for neatness like a nazi).

I've never been tested for OCD and doubt I ever will (b/c I don't go see doctors, ever). But there's a chance I have certain tendencies. I don't get crazy anxious and wash my hands 17 times. I do walk on cracks and don't mind walking on checkered floors (though, to be quite honest, it's just more fun to walk only on the black ones). But being ultra neat and organized is really important to me. For example, two days ago, I (temporarily) lost a chapstick and I legitimately could not concentrate on my work b/c I felt my lips getting more and more chapped by the second.

okay, now that i've made myself seem crazzzzy. have a nice evening friends!