Bad habits gone Worse

I am at an all time low when it comes to paper writing.

Thursday I had a paper due at 6pm. It had been assigned before Thanksgiving break. Thus I spent my break reading the book (which I should have read earlier). Oh and when I say I spent my break reading the book, that actually translates to reading about 20 pages of it on my family's drive to PA before I got sick of reading in the car.

Thus, Wed afternoon I met with my TA to discuss paper ideas, only to find out that my intuition for the paper was entirely wrong. So after being redirected, I returned home to read the rest of the book (200 pages of an arabic in translation book in a couple hours aka hardcore skimming). By midnight, I was pooped and still confused about what I was writing about. So from 1am- 2am I wrote about a page and a bit and passed out with my computer on my lap, waking up an hour later to turn off my lights, say a prayer that I'd get the paper done Thursday morning and set my alarm for a lovely 6:30am!!

So instead of being one of those not-so-great students to write a paper the night before, I have steeped to a worse situation...writing the paper the morning-of! Yes, I did get it done. How good it was, is up for debate. Do I feel accomplished? yes b/c I won! I got my work done and in on time. Do I feel good about this supposed-accomplishment? not one bit. I worry about the fate of my paper and furthermore my fate as a student who continues to procrastinate and get away with it.

I guess I do feel like a 4th year now. I'm ready for the next two weeks to fly by a little bit... Though I do love UVA, I think I'm ready to spend next semester thesising and not much else. <--Or so I will convince myself!